— Tuesday with Morrie, Mitch Albom
These 2 months, i had lived my life as per normal and usually i wouldn't think of her as much, but that day i did.
i thought of why she couldn't be cured, why she couldn't survived.. why must she die so early.. There was a time we made her look forward and imagine a healthy life ahead and we would go for a vacation, happy together. but none of this will ever happen. it was a useless hope. It hurts.
am reminded of the song again, recently it's in my head.
Mummy, are you in paradise now? Is it better there? even without us, is Paradise a better place to be? maybe without cancer, it is.. but I miss you so much.. let me dream of you please let me see your face ); i beg you, and let me still remember the dream when i woke up. until now i haven't had a dream i remember having you in it. you know how sad is that? when everyone else could at least see you in their dreams, why can't i?
cancer is such a scary thing. why does it even exists?
i need a change of topicc nowww.
it was her birthday on Tuesday, she just turned 18. she, is only 18. but embarrased to say, she seems more mature than me.
and since she's a lil open with her relationship now i shall grab and post a photo of her and her boyfriend which she puts as profile picture on facebook! hehe!
you want to see it right?
I know right, she has grown up, but where am i now? #foreversingle :<
okayy so on tuesday after work, chiong-ed home to make her a birthday card (the one above) before dad drives me to west coast plaza to meet the sisters.
SUSHI TEI for dinner (:
satisfied the sushi craving ^_^
one more craving down!
and IMISSYOU THAM ZHIHAO! meet sooooooon!
TGIF, town with Jiahuey for a night date (:
we had dinner at Watami! (*^_^*)